Raw Food Journal #43: The Fasting Feat for Fast Feet

August 8, 2011

I overate yesterday. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m emotionally eating to the extreme, but it’s every single day! I’m bored, I eat. I’m sad about eating too much, so I eat more. I eat and eat and eat. I tried to distract myself by going to a friends’ house last night, but I just ate there too. Last year I could resist eating. Why is it so hard for me to do now?
Today I’m trying to just eat a little. I feel like I have to do that for myself. I have to set up a plan, though:
Breakfast: 1/2 melon
Lunch: vegetables of any kind, little to no fat
Dinner: ??? Vegetables?
I just want to keep everything light and fresh. We’ll see how this goes…
Yeah this didn’t work at all. I ate a large melon and then a small one. An hour later I had two mangoes, and then for lunch three apples and chopped vegetables. I’m eating too much, especially for not exercising because of my knee injury.
I saw that Yuri Elkaim (a certified holistic nutritionist) posted something on Facebook about eating too much the night before, so he’s fasting until 4pm today. Maybe I’ll try something more realistic like that next time…
I read an interesting tidbit this morning in Douglas Graham’s 80/10/10 diet book: “As one lightens the digestive load by switching to raw foods, the body suddenly has more nerve energy to conduct emotions, and emotions suppressed over the years begin to emerge. This unexpected challenge proves overwhelming for many people. Until people learn to properly deal with their emotional baggage it is likely that eating raw food will allow uncomfortable emotions to surface. They will find themselves going back to eating cooked foods for the emotional ‘comfort’ that they bring” (241). This makes perfect sense! It’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. I keep telling my mom that I feel more connected to my body and understand my emotions more since transitioning to a raw food diet.
But this is a tough point for me. I feel like I’m getting to the part where I need to take hold of what I’m feeling. I can’t keep eating away my boredom and sadness. I have to be in control.
I just bought my second scale because I wanted one that measures body fat, too. Plus it would help to compare weight with both scales. According to this new scale I have 14% body fat now, and that scares me. I’ll use it again tomorrow to see if it changes. I feel horrible. I feel fat and gross.
August 9, 2011
Running log: KJDFOIJWENFEWEFIJOWFJI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GAH, DANG KNEE!!! I am at the point of absolute frustration. I know it’s only been a week, but my frustration stems from the accumulation of constantly having all these nags in running. I’d rather get injured after cross country camp, honestly. I just want to run with the team and enjoy myself with everyone. But maybe camp should be fun mostly because I’m with the team and enjoying everyone’s presence.
I would hate to sit out while everyone runs. I know, I know, other people have done it, and I’m not alone in it. It’s just easier not running when you’re at home because you don’t have to watch people go out for a run and at least when you are home you are able to cross train. I was telling my teammate Carly that it’d be a little tough to aqua jog in the river at camp…
Today’s run was miserable. The first mile was fine, but the knee still didn’t feel right. Into the second mile my knee hurt a little more, so I stopped and stretched, then tried running again, stopped and stretched, and by the time I got home my knee hurt terribly.
I hate this.
I do not advocate nor do I completely dismiss the raw food diet but I do encourage you to stay with me through these past journal entries (please note the date in bold verses the post date) until the end to decide for yourself what you think would be best for you as pertaining to diet if you feel the need to change in any way. Please understand that I went into the raw food diet with some wrong intentions. Learn from my mistakes before making your own.

About Rachael

Rachael Steil is a graduate from Aquinas College in Grand Rapids, Michigan with a Bachelor of Arts. Steil an author, speaker, and a recipient of the Spirit and Outstanding Runner award for the Aquinas College cross country team and has received 6th place All-American accolades in cross country as well as 7th place in the NAIA track nationals.
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