Raw Food Journal Entries 26-29: Trying to Hold On to the Past

June 17, 2011

I went to see the movie “Forks Over Knives” which promotes eating a plant-based diet to get rid of the common diseases in America. It solidified everything I’ve been learning/researching with the dairy and meat industries. What perfect timing!
On the way home I couldn’t stop thinking about the grapes we had sitting in the kitchen. I knew I had to wait until about 4pm to make sure the avocado I ate for lunch was completely digested, but that escaped my mind when Rachel and I arrived home. I grabbed a handful of grapes and I was done for. I ate the rest of the grapes (a large bowl of them) and started feeling the effects of mixing the fruit with avocado (fat) soon after. My stomach didn’t feel right. It was nothing painful or anything; I just felt gassy and bloated.
Then I felt hungry for a big salad. I waited as long as I could but I was too hungry and impatient so I made one about forty minutes later. My jaw felt achy and tired from just that one salad, especially when I tried to chew up all the kale.
June 20, 2011
Dinner: Rachel and I made “Rawsagna” (raw lasagna) which consisted of flat zucchini strips, almond-nut “cheese,” tomato sauce, and olive oil (I cringed when we had to pour this on it all…ugh). It was so tasty though that I ate almost all of it. I think next time I will make less nut “cheese” and instead add more tomato sauce. And I probably won’t use olive oil if I make it on my own.
Poor Rachel wasn’t up for any more rawsagna though. Here I was munching away at it at the table while she lay on the couch, queasy and unable to stomach another bite. There was something about the raw zucchini or the nut “cheese” in it that didn’t sit well with her.
One thing I’ve been working on now is not counting calories. It just causes stress, which can be detrimental to eating healthy anyway. If I’m stressed about what I eat, I won’t be completely healthy.
June 25, 2011
I raced at the Cheetah Chase 5k today. It went well and I won it! I felt weird going into the race because I know last year I was a few pounds lighter. I couldn’t help feeling like it was obvious that I had gained a few pounds.
DSC_6409-lo-RS-skipix-copyright[1]June 26, 2011
Workout: 8-mile long run
Dinner: After I ran with my teammates we went to an open house for one of the girls joining the cross country team this year. Luckily the food was mostly salad. I ate salad after my green smoothie but of course I didn’t add chicken or anything to it. That’s when Carly wondered aloud how I could keep full without any protein. That does make me think sometimes—protein is a big thing I learned about keeping us full, but I figure all the fiber and nutrition in raw food keeps you full instead. But was what Carly said true? Would I need more protein again? Would I gain weight since I’m not eating dense protein sources to make me feel full? I think that’s part of why I get so worried about eating enough greens; but it can be hard to eat so many of those every day because it takes so much time to chew and fruit often sounds better.
I was hungry again later that night. I tried to go to bed early to sleep off the hunger like I did last summer. I still remember with satisfaction and awe how I completed a long run last year with my friends, just ate strawberries afterward with Trinity, and then tried to go to bed right away so that I wouldn’t eat any more until the next morning. I loved how I could accomplish this and feel so light and excited the next morning. It felt like I was getting closer to my goal.
I couldn’t sleep tonight though because I was so hungry. I had to eat some fruit. When I grabbed the last three bananas I told Rachel (who was watching TV) that I had just remembered to grab them to eat to pack for after tomorrow morning’s run. Yeah right. I ate all three of them right when I went back to my bedroom. I felt guilty though. I feel like I’m losing discipline.
I feel pressure to get down to the weight I was last summer because I was running so well last year. Plus I feel the pressure to do even better for my sophomore year of college. And it seems I’m up to about 123lbs consistently now and at this time last year I was around 120. I feel like those few pounds would make a difference.
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I do not advocate nor do I completely dismiss the raw food diet but I do encourage you to stay with me through these past journal entries (please note the date in bold verses the post date) until the end to decide for yourself what you think would be best for you as pertaining to diet if you feel the need to change in any way. Please understand that I went into the raw food diet with some wrong intentions. Learn from my mistakes before making your own.

About Rachael

Rachael Steil is a graduate from Aquinas College in Grand Rapids, Michigan with a Bachelor of Arts. Steil an author, speaker, and a recipient of the Spirit and Outstanding Runner award for the Aquinas College cross country team and has received 6th place All-American accolades in cross country as well as 7th place in the NAIA track nationals.
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2 Responses to Raw Food Journal Entries 26-29: Trying to Hold On to the Past

  1. Rachel says:

    I remember that part about the bananas seeming kind of weird at the time.

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