Raw Food Journal Entry 19-21: The Chocolate Challenge

May 31, 2011

Yesterday started off wonderfully—I ate a mango and kale smoothie, two apples for lunch, and kale and hummus for a snack. For dinner we went to an open house where I ate three plates of raw veggies with little sides of salsa and dressing-covered salad to add more taste.
Everything went downhill when I got home. I still felt like I needed something “more.” I ate two ears of sweet corn and felt satisfied. Unfortunately the cravings started up again. I tried eating grapes, but the taste wasn’t getting what I desired. I think originally I craved a smoothie, but I felt too concerned about food combining. I think I should’ve just gone with that though. I think I needed more leafy greens (I just watched a YouTube video that revealed how leafy greens helps cravings disappear). Then I thought I had more of a sweet tooth, so I ate a date. It was very tasty, but I still wasn’t satisfied in the right way. I tried having another, and then another (taking periodic breaks to see if that’s what my body wanted) but something still didn’t feel right! So I ate some strawberries, then four cups of almond milk, and it seemed to go on and on.
I wanted chocolate. It sounded delicious. But I kept trying to hold it off, to see if I could conquer the cravings with other raw foods. It wasn’t working. Eventually I caved in to the semi-sweet chocolates in our pantry, and after about three handfuls I felt much better. I felt satisfied and was able to sit down and read. I think just having the little bit of chocolate was exactly what I needed, but I tried to avoid it for so long that I stuffed myself with everything else. I learned a lot from this–instead of trying to avoid it, it might be better just to indulge in a little chocolate, because otherwise I’m filling up on unnecessary extra calories.
Chocolate cravings may be from low iron and magnesium. I don’t think magnesium is the problem (I’m pretty sure I get enough from my raw diet) but maybe it’s iron…
June 1, 2011
I had another binge-type episode tonight. I don’t know why I always feel like this at night. I think I still need to eat more leafy greens. So frustrating!
June 2, 2011
Rachel and I are now the followers of David “Avocado” Wolfe—the ultimate raw-food guru.
Wolfe wrote “The Sunfood Diet,” a raw food book that I recently ordered from the library. Rachel and I have been poring over it, laughing at his quirky insight and marveling at his raw-food recipes. Wolfe wears a tan-colored parka and has crazy curly brown hair. He seems like a caricature to me from the raw-food world. It makes me feel like the raw food world is from another realm….

David Wolfe - Raw SuperFood Expert

Wolfe suggests we eat according to what he calls the Sunfood pyramid—33% carbs, 33% fats, 33% protein. I think I will try to follow that for now—so that means I still have to keep an eye out on how much fruit I eat because I seem to eat too much of it compared to fats and protein (protein from leafy greens and nuts and seeds).
Rachel and I went to Harvest Health to buy some of the ingredients Wolfe suggests for the rawcipes. The ingredients were strange at first—I didn’t know anything like this ever existed (my dad joked with us and called the ingredients “unicorn hooves,” “elf blood,” etc). We bought apple cider vinegar (which Rachel found out also helps to get rid of seasonal allergies), lemons (for salad dressing), spirulina (a great algae-power protein punch!), Udo’s oil, miso, and young coconut water (they come in little juice pouches, so cute!).
And then we bought the raw cacao beans.
I was most excited for these—the moment Rachel and I slid back into the car we ripped open the bag of cacao. This would be a treat! We each took a bean and bit into it.
Our faces did not light up in ecstasy as I had imagined they would. Instead we sat there looking at each other as we slowly chewed the chunky cacao, which completely lacked any sweet taste. True chocolate was bitterer than I had expected. We were disappointed to say the least.
I guess I should have expected that. Chocolate only tastes good because there’s sugar added to it. But there was a part of me that had hoped that these cacao beans would be a revelation, would be a way for me to indulge in chocolate and get rid of my cravings.
“Maybe we should stick them inside a date,” Rachael suggested. I nodded. I was up for another trial with the chocolate—after all, this product was expensive!
When we returned home with our new goodies, we began “uncooking” for the first time. I think I’ve always been tentative about following the raw recipes because it seems overwhelming, but Rachel has helped me to get out of my comfort zone and start.
We first tried to make almond butter. The night before I soaked some almonds, so I today we peeled off the shells and we added all the ingredients necessary (we looked at a raw food book, one of many that I’ve been ordering from the library). We put everything in the blender instead of using a food processor because I still don’t have one yet. Unfortunately because we used the blender, it was hard to crush up the almonds without adding more water. So the almond butter (which should’ve been more of the consistency of peanut butter) was more like almond soup. It still tasted good though, so not all the raw soup I make is bad haha.
Later I tested drinking a green smoothie while munching up a cacao bean. I might include cacao beans in my upcoming smoothies! Mixing it with sweet fruit tastes delicious and adds that sugar punch.
For right now I’m not sure what to do about the upcoming school year at my school’s cafeteria. I’m required to live on campus and thus have a food plan (because I wouldn’t have my own kitchen) but it wouldn’t work with what I how I want to eat. I want my green smoothies in the morning (so I’d have to have my blender at Wege plus lots of leafy greens for the smoothies, which they don’t provide in the morning), I’d need my blender at lunch, plus more leafy greens (which they don’t have much of a variety of to begin with–just spinach sometimes and mixed baby greens) and supper would be okay with all the vegetables and salad…but I wouldn’t have my own raw dressing or anything. I don’t want to be any more stressed out than I have to and miss out on the important nutrients in leafy greens. But it’d be embarrassing to blend everything at the cafeteria. That would look ridiculous and the blender is loud. I draw enough attention to myself already by eating weird compared to everyone else. Heck, I heard enough about my food even when it was cooked!
Dinner: I ordered a large salad at Carrabba’s. I made a card explaining that “I only eat raw, uncooked food and would like any raw veggies and leafy greens in it.” I was embarrassed to use it at first but it works great! The salad had bell peppers, sun-dried tomatoes, olives, spinach, arugula, hot peppers, carrot slices, and celery. It was the best salad I’d ever eaten.
I do not advocate nor do I completely dismiss the raw food diet but I do encourage you to stay with me through these past journal entries (please note the date in bold verses the post date) until the end to decide for yourself what you think would be best for you as pertaining to diet if you feel the need to change in any way. Please understand that I went into the raw food diet with some wrong intentions. Learn from my mistakes before making your own.

About Rachael

Rachael Steil is a graduate from Aquinas College in Grand Rapids, Michigan with a Bachelor of Arts. Steil an author, speaker, and a recipient of the Spirit and Outstanding Runner award for the Aquinas College cross country team and has received 6th place All-American accolades in cross country as well as 7th place in the NAIA track nationals.
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2 Responses to Raw Food Journal Entry 19-21: The Chocolate Challenge

  1. Shannon says:

    It’s amazing how I can connect my ED experience so much to yours (except for the fact that I went through mine at a younger age). I really, really appreciate how you’ve decided to blog out your journal and personal story. I suspect that it shows many others that they’re not alone in their own journeys. :) And it’s almost like reading a book. I love it.

    • rachael says:

      Thank you! I’m glad you are enjoying this. Thanks for reading!
      If you ever need anything, even just to talk, let me know. :)

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