Raw Food Journal Entries 45-49: Everything Was Working Out Until the Workout
August 14, 2011
After all the pouting I did it looks like my knee is getting back to where it should be. Today’s five-mile run felt fantastic from the moment I started. I felt wary that the knee would act up again, but it didn’t. It felt a little tight by the end, so I just stopped at five miles (I was tempted to do six or seven).
All the way home for that run I was so thankful. Who knows what tomorrow will bring, but it was great spending the rest of the night constantly reminding myself, oh yeah, I ran five wonderful miles tonight.
August 17, 2011
Wow, best day yet! I got in 9 miles of running and 20minutes of cross training. I felt good and was not hungry with about 850 calories total (which was the calorie total when I subtracted the calories burned for exercise).
I went to PT today and he said my hips have grown a bit. I guess it’s just been taking years for them to gradually “grow” but yes, I am becoming more of a woman–which means I’ve become slightly knock-kneed and need to focus on my side-step with the band exercises to work on strengthening my hips.
I’m wondering if the larger hips are where the weight gain is coming from, or the stretch marks at least. Or maybe I just really did gain a lot of weight from overeating.
Today I had 9% of my calories from fat, 9% protein, 83% carbs. Near perfect!
We were driving home from PT and I sporadically decided to run–right then and there. I told my mom and jumped out of the car about two miles away from home, ran home, and just kept going since my knee felt so good. Another six miles down!
August 19, 2011
I moved into my new dorm today and tried to distract myself from eating because I didn’t think I was truly hungry. But I ended up eating two bananas and two apples. I ate half a Larabar before the hill workout, too.
My knee felt great for the warmup, but about halfway through the workout it started to feel a little strange again. I haven’t done a hard workout on the knee yet and I did just get back into running again. It felt tight especially by the last repeat, but not painful.
I couldn’t help but feel fat coming to practice. I don’t know why, but I was scared my coach would notice. I don’t want to disappoint him or the team by being slower with the weight gain. I’m not sure if it’s just in my mind or not but I think my green cheetah-print shorts are tighter. I was embarrassed to wear them to practice today. I was especially frustrated that I gave into that fruit before practice too, because I don’t think I was even truly hungry. After the workout I made sure to just drink a cup of green smoothie for supper.
August 20, 2012
I met up with the Grand Rapids Running Club at John Ball this morning. I knew the run might not work out great, especially because I my knee hurt even more last night. Right from the start of the run I knew it didn’t feel that great, and about a quarter mile into the run it was achy and hurt more on the outside of the knee. I stopped and stretched a bit. Then I tried running again and the same thing happened, so I turned around early and stopped two more times. By the end the front of my knee was in a lot of pain. I’m not too concerned because at least it doesn’t hurt in the same place and I’m guessing my knee is just adjusting.
August 21, 2012
Adjusting, my butt.
I came to one of the greatest practices of the year—the first official day of cross country practice. We went to Fallasburg Park for the long run; one of the most beautiful, hilly places to run in the countryside. I finally got to run there this past summer after not being able to run there with my team in the early spring because of my left knee injury, but once again I found myself at the sidelines today. Coach Woj asked why I stayed back when the girls took off; I could only look up at him and choke out how my knee was in pain again.
The tears had come on so suddenly, and I felt stupid. I felt stupid for thinking I could do the workout on Friday and stupid for coming away from it seemingly more injured than ever before.
I do not advocate nor do I completely dismiss the raw food diet but I do encourage you to stay with me through these past journal entries (please note the date in bold verses the post date) until the end to decide for yourself what you think would be best for you as pertaining to diet if you feel the need to change in any way. Please understand that I went into the raw food diet with some wrong intentions. Learn from my mistakes before making your own.