July 16, 2011
My weight scares the hell out of me. I know I shouldn’t be surprised after bingeing again last night, but this feels like something out of my control and I feel alone in it. I only have myself to blame.
I competed in the Tri Del Sol triathlon today. I’m surprised I did as well as I did after binging again last night on cooked food. Luckily my times were a little faster for each part of the triathlon compared to last year. I still can’t help looking back at the pictures of me from last year, knowing that I weigh more now than I did last year.