The Update

Wow, it’s been nearly a year since I’ve had this blog now! First, I’d like to thank everyone for the support–what a great readership I have here. I couldn’t have done it without you. There are so many points where I thought about falling back down the wrong path, only to think about how I had all the support back here, with so many eyes watching and reading. Oh yeah, and it helps to know I have a writing project that needs a good ending. When you are still writing a story you are still living, reminding yourself that YOU (in part) can choose the ending, it makes a big difference in every decision you make.
This has been quite the experience. I can only hope that you all will experience an outpouring of emotions and a voice of your own when you feel the time is ready–no matter what the problem is that you are dealing with. So again, thank you.
Anyway, I thought it would be a good time to update everyone on “The Project.” I’ve been working on editing and revising every day–which, I found, has been a long process in itself. I treat it like a (fun) homework assignment. Once I divided everything into chapters (there are 65!), I assigned myself to revise/edit a chapter a day. Little did I know how much I would get stuck on a few chapters, spending as much as two weeks going back over the same one and editing, enhancing, and just plain ‘ol pouring my heart out into what I had. Sometimes I just get so inspired with these memories and want to make sure I get the reader in my head.

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It’s a fun, wild adventure. Looking back on the past can be difficult, but it is helpful, too. More things have clicked from looking back on my past, which help my present and future. I try not to dwell on the past too much–that can hurt–but I think it is a therapeutic process going over and over these past events and finally putting them to the side.
But it is finished. I can confidently say that I no longer feel the pull to write about food, and somehow things just came together for the ending. I can’t explain when, why, or how, of course, but it happened and the project feels complete. There were a few times where I thought I had the ending, but I can confidently say the decision has been made.
My writing project is complete.
Well, complete in the sense that there is a beginning, middle, and end. But chapters need to be re-arranged, useless information needs to be taken out, and events need to be enhanced with the emotions and thoughts I felt at the time.
It’s a long process. I can’t wait to finish, but I also don’t want to finish because I’m having so much fun with it. It keeps me going every day and I look forward to working on it.
Thanks again for the support. Hang in there, I’m working and revising as fast as I can! ;)

About Rachael

This is my personal journey in my poor relationship with food while racing competitively at the collegiate level. What began as gradual restriction for weight loss during my senior year of high school turned into a mental battle to keep the weight down, only for my mind and body to battle back a year later after attempting first the raw food diet, with other diet trials thereafter. As I write about these different diets, I do not advocate a certain way of eating, but instead I show what seemed to work for me, and what didn't--and that with having an eating disorder (while certainly mild compared to others) I was unable to have a good relationship with food at any point.
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2 Responses to The Update

  1. Effie says:

    So inspired by you Rachel! Your introspection is inspiring, as is the fact that you’ve taken on this writing project! I can’t wait to read it! It’s so true that having the project gives us an obligation to create an ending we’re proud of– for that reason alone I agree we should all be writing our hearts out. And you’re right, it’s hard to look back on the past, but I do think it is so so so worth it. Keep it up!

  2. Florence says:

    Hi Rachel! So this is awkward, Effie was my pseudonym…I was a bit too shy to use my real name. However, here I am, and I still think your blog is great/we still have lots in common. I can’t wait until your book is ready so keep up with the revising!

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